...thinking about other people taking care of them.
...not being able to see their developments.
...not being able to protect them.
...spending so little time with them.
...knowing this is not a temporary arrangement.
amir (abang long) is growing up so fast. he loves to count (like his mummy). he would count everything in front of him, from the stairs, to corn flakes, to grapes, to his toy cars. he loves watching the telly, he has memorised some of the scenes and dialogues from monsters, inc. he sees so many things that we cant see. he loves to follow what hubby and i do and say. he loves lying down next to asyraf. he's so attentive and so concerned about asyraf...baby cry, baby susu, baby tidur, he would inform us as though he's the only one who knows what asyraf is doing.
asyraf, the very difficult baby, has changed so much. he's finally smiled at daddy and mummy. he's starting to gurgle and coo at us, especially at amir. he loves watching amir and would stare to see what amir does. he has been sleeping for 6-7 hours at night, waking up only at 5am for a nappy change and a bottle. he loves the baby carrier and would sleep for hours in it.
leaving asyraf is harder as i didnt have time to bond with him. i had amir all to myself for a year, not that its enough but i had time to get to know him. i feel like i dont know asyraf, not as much as i want to.
my babies, i hope you know that if i could, i would never ever leave you. i think of both of you every single second of the day.
7 comments:
i bet u were crying when u wrote that...
i so know u, eiseai...
again, the offer still stands...
cepat lah go for that interview b4 he hires some1 else...
memang pun mesti kak sally kita ni nangis... sbb memang rasa nak nangis sama ni...
pn salina mesti ngah sedih & rindu yg teramat sgt kan? huhuhu. saba ek..
+nanti, bile amir & asyraf dah bsr, suh depa bace blog nie. mesti depa akan sayang sgt sama mummy nya :)
i hope your 2 boys are getting better. Im sure its difficult to take care of a sick baby.. apa lagi 2.
they both look a like. and they both look so loving...
tiza...i was crying when i wrote, when i read back to edit, and whenever i read the post :( i think i can go earlier cos the april thingy may be brought forward.
cujie/kombat...mmg sedih kan. rasa2 i tak leh kerja lah. asyik teringat baby je.
dot...mmg susah jaga a sick baby but at least we jaga. i donno how other people handle taking care of my sick babies.
I understand, its hard to let go.
Bila you start kerja ni?
trueblue...i am here...below u!!
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